HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

why i love and adore mariah...

"well i guess i'm tryna be nonchalant about it.
and i'm going to extreme, to prove i'm fine without you.
but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind.
underneath the disguise of a smile,
gradually i'm dying inside.
friends ask me how i feel, and i lie convincingly
cause i don't want to reveal, the fact that i'm suffering.
so i wear my disguise, till i go home at night,
and turn down all the lights,
and then i breakdown and cry..."

- breakdown, mariah carey

this is exactly as i feared... every cold word from you cuts like a knife. i would sooner have the silence than this pain... what would you have me do? i have bared myself and now you will have to finish what you started for i am defenceless and i have given myself to the pain.
i want back to those halcyon days, i can only hope they are not lost to me forever.

négligé. l'un amour de I a brisé mon coeur aujourd'hui. mon coeur écrasé, piétiné plus de. je me sens sans valeur.