have you ever woken up from your night's sleep and just started crying? the immense feeling of loss and loneliness. emptiness. the defeaning silence just kills you.
i had a bad dream last night. a dream i only wish it never came true. not now. not until i'm ready to face up to the reality of things. as i opened my eyes, tears started flowing. uncontrollably. it was probably the lowest point of my life. i've never felt so empty, so alone, so loss. i don't ever wanna be without them. but everything is pre-destined. and as much as you try to make yourself believe that they'll be with you forever, they won't. things don't happen the way we want them to be. i just don't think i can take the immense feeling of loss and loneliness everyday, as i arise from bed, knowing that they're not here with me. people always say that even when we're gone, we are always among the living in spirit. so what? i won't be able to touch, hold them, hug them and talk to them in person. face to face. laugh at stupid things and just be a family. it's the whole deal. that's what counts! nothing else does! i dunno if i sound selfish or silly. but i don't want them to ever go away. i'm an emotional basket-case!
i love you mom & dad
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweighed the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead.
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
i had a bad dream last night. a dream i only wish it never came true. not now. not until i'm ready to face up to the reality of things. as i opened my eyes, tears started flowing. uncontrollably. it was probably the lowest point of my life. i've never felt so empty, so alone, so loss. i don't ever wanna be without them. but everything is pre-destined. and as much as you try to make yourself believe that they'll be with you forever, they won't. things don't happen the way we want them to be. i just don't think i can take the immense feeling of loss and loneliness everyday, as i arise from bed, knowing that they're not here with me. people always say that even when we're gone, we are always among the living in spirit. so what? i won't be able to touch, hold them, hug them and talk to them in person. face to face. laugh at stupid things and just be a family. it's the whole deal. that's what counts! nothing else does! i dunno if i sound selfish or silly. but i don't want them to ever go away. i'm an emotional basket-case!
i love you mom & dad
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweighed the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead.
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
