Thursday, June 12, 2003

OUTSIDE
It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there
Always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside

Early on, you face
The realization you don't have a space
Where you fit in
And recognize you
Were born to exist

And it's hard
Irreversibly
Falling in between
And it's hard
To be understood
As you are

Oh, and God knows
That you're standing on your own
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try - try and try
To tell yourself
You really are
But in your heart - uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the outside

You'll always be
Somewhere on the outside

Monday, June 09, 2003

wah... feels great to be able to write again. was damn tired yesterday so i slept and slept.... anyway... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON... ok ok.. i know it was yesterday.. but i believe i was the first to sms u at 12.15am!!! hahaha... yeay! anyway.. hope u had a great day yesterday..
concert was great. sharon, sheila, pam and pam came.. so happy.. debbie gave me chocolates and a hug... was reallie sweet of her!! hosting the show with Janice was awesome. she looked breathtaking!! gorgeous i tell you! i couldn't talk when i first saw her.. whoa.. the sight of a beautiful being beside me.. just spectacular..

now back to normal days.. camp this whole week.. not so much a camp. much of a day camp.. sigh.. chosemy comm members oredi.. quite happy with it! i'm so sad to leave my post.. but i'm also v happy.. i dunno.. am i making sense? ok ok.. gotta start studying!