Confidence. Insecurity.
i am a confident person. generally. i say what I think. i do what I want when I want. I call people out on their shit. I'm blatant. I take no crap from anyone and don't care what they think. But when I'm alone in my room, that's when my insecurities kick in. I sometimes reflect on another person's opinion of me. I even doubt myself and my abilities. I sometimes get into those moods where I feel down. There're times when I wish I was somebody else living another life. always


but, I will never have self-pity.

totally screwed up. hmmm was studying in school today with a cj friend. in any case, to cut the long-ass story short, OM walked in and chased us out.. umm, visha and her vj friend too! quite sad actually, so here i am back hone! darn irritating! sigh, anyway, trying to finish up my russian revolution by 2 o clock. i'm starving.

hey elizabeth, thanks for dropping by and tagging that. things will get better, i hope.

in any case. i'm going back to studying. i have to. commons are in one and a half weeks time. gotta get some serious shit done. once i finish russia today.. i'll se what i wanna do.. yup.

adios!

that google box thingy is not working.. so i dunno if anything was said.. anyway..it's still in my mind. can't stop thinking about it. kept asking elizabeth during econs today.."eveything ok, is it back to normal yet?"

-flashback-
Fen: what are you looking for? you're suppose to be dancing. looking for a friend ah?
Me: yeah. i'm looking for something. a small corner i can crouch in to hide from her.

-present-
ah.. seriously, it's been bothering me! haha.. dunno why i'm so damn affected. but i am. read your entry. i'm soo soo soo sorry that it wasn't SIGNIFICANTLY better.. i didn't know things would turn out the way that it did. i feel really bad and guilty. and i dunno what else to do. i mean. i dunno how to face you. maybe to some it's not a big deal, in which case, i retrieved the id back anyway. but to me it is. i mean, if a friend passed you an id.. of course you have to be partkly responsible for it. even though it's actually for another person.. rite? i tink i'll try to avoid responsibilities from now on.. haha.. i dunno.. everything's blank.

sometimes it's so hard. you just dun know what to do.

i'm really sorry, very sorry that your id was confiscated..believe me, i was truly distressed about it. i know that you do have the right to be angry with me but i do hope it won't be for very long. people make mistakes, and we learn from it. i've learnt never to lend ids to other people. i'm sure she learnt her lessons as well. i dunno what else to say but sorry. what's done can never be undone. but i dun want you to be angry with me.. or her, for that matter.

truly, very sorry.. i deeply regret it..