it's rather disconcerting to come to the realisation that you shouldn't hope to much, it'll only bring about utter disappointment. you build your world around the hopes of getting a better one when it arrives, and then you realise it's something you're never meant to have.

maybe i'm suppose to wait. maybe, when i get it, the satisfaction is far greater. maybe i'm not suppose to have one. maybe the earth should open up and swallow me whole. just maybe.

but maybe isn't enough is it? because maybe is so intangible, so impalpable that it kills me not to know.

on hindsight... the previous entry sounds nothing like me! ok maybe a little bit. but well, when you're overcome by hatred and anger, you're just not yourself anymore! so let's move on from that entry.

on a frivolous and bimbotic note, blogger totally revamped its system! it so wayy cooler now. -and that's the end of the bimbotic/himbotic mode- but seriously, now we can atually play with colours!!! so exciting! hahaha. and we can change... FONTS.. haha so interesting! kudos to blogger!

been emailling rose abit. the poor girl is kinda lost there in melbourne - hang in there k. things will only get better! not too worry!-