ok.. my last post.. i have yet to feel very jittery about things.. but i guess the feelings have yet to set in.. perhaps it will later on when i am seated in the ferry looking at the vacinity where my life for the next 6 weeks will be spent. perhaps then, the whole feeling of fear will overcome me. i dun really wanna make a big deal about things like this. i mean. i'm a man and the reason i'm going into national service is to be a better man. so, i'm hoping for the best. mentally i've prepared myself. i guess. i mean how am i suppose to prepare myself for something i have no idea what it will be like. so. i'm just taking it like it i'm going for band camp. military band camp in sji not symphonic band camp in tjc!

i'm not so much scared about what i'm going to be going through in camp. the training, the 'tekan-ing', the shit. it's all part of the process. part of the deal. but it's the fact that i won't be seeing my friends. i won't be chatting with them on the fone or on msn or on icq.. i'm going to miss my friends.

thanks for always being there, you guys.. whether we know each other personally or otherwise. thanks for being my friend! take care and whenever you all do. pray for my well-being. that i'll be ok. that i won't die.

oklah.. a tad too much rite? it's like as though i'm going for war like that! or worse like as though i'm going to die! haha.. i'll be oklah. everything will be alrite! so no big deal lah.. things will turn out fine. i'm taking what my seniors told me as a guiding pole. it'll be exactly like band camp.. except slightly slacker... hahaha.. ok then.. i'll sign off now. take care you guys.. my life will be on hold. and when i come back. my wonderful hair would be gone. and i'll be just like all the rest. bald! haha.

take care and goodbye!

merry christmas to all and to all a happy new year!!!

in any case.. today would be the last day i'm actually posting something over blogger.. i'm going in tomorrow at 0900hours.. haha.. talking in military terms already.. i'm quite geared up for national service tho the occasional jitters still try to make its way into my bones... but i think i'll be ok.. i'm going in with an open mind and preparing for the worst. i mean that's the only way to really be prepared for anything.. i dun know wht to expect but i'm sure things would be ok.. i just need to learn to be nice and not so bitchy.. haha!

i have not had the chance to visit jolene.. i know she's back home now.. but i've got no one to go with.. i mean sharon's in new zealand and will only be back today!! how the hell am i going to visit jolene? oh well.. jolene.. my prayers are always going to be with you... whoever is going to visit jolene..please send my regards.... be strong girl! rest alot!

i'll be back this coming wednesday... hahah... about 5 days in camp then i'll come back and complain about it.. haha. oh well.. pray for me ya!

sharon.... you are in for a real treat.. be sure of that!

swear to god i didn't cheat.. but hahaha... oh well..


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nicole anne is such a sweet girl!! hehe.. hunky monkeyier? nah-uh.. haha

GO AND WATCH LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
it's the best show i've watched so far.. ok one of the best i've watched in my life!! the battle scene was awesome!! totally exciting and nerve-wrecking. i would have enjoyed it to the max if i didn't have to go to the loo like 3 times during the show!! ROTK was really amazing! i cannot stop thinking about it. i'm going to watch it again before i go into ns this friday.. i have to! legolas is one cool fighter.. i won't spoil it for ye who have not seen it. but just remember legolas and mammoth killed. look out for that scene! it was freaking cool! for a moment i imagined myself as legolas.. ok ok.. i know weidong is already thinking.. "legolas?? more like the mammoth!" haha.. but yeah.. i wanna be an elf warrior/prince!!

let's just say i love the last instalment of LOTR one of the best la.. i think.

realised minzie dearie and her sweetie marcus were in cine. she sms-ed me and realised we're both watching the same show at the same time.. the only different is their seats were the third row from the screen. and mine was te fifth row from the back.. haha... hey i came at 11am to buy tix for the 4.10pm show you know!! and that was already half - filled.. i was lucky to get those good seats.

saw nicole and matt teo too.. i realised matt's a very intelligent person.. i mean not that i dunno he is la.. but i discovered today that he's the type that carries a book around with.. much like myself! so it makes us intellectual people!! hahah.. train and bus rides can be super boring k!

i'm tired already.. think i'm going to sleep and dream about being an elf! hahah.

i just realised something. as i got out of bed a few moments ago... i realised my days are numbered... i can't watch all my favourite shows anymore!! and this week... god knows why there aren't any will & grace. i need my weekly dossage of will & grace.. i've been following every week since last year! and now i realised. i won't get to watch it at all!!!!! argh!!! my whole season 6. this will be the first time i won't gt to watch an episode of will & grace.. and Sex & the City is coming back!!!!!!!!!!!! it's about time! but of course i won't catch the ninth episode (for those of you who dunno this, the show stopped at episode 8. i can't remember why. i think sarah j parker had some maternity thingy) anyway. the show will continue again on the 4th of january and if you check the left of the screen you realise.... it's A DAY BEFORE my birthday... i'm spending my birthday in camp!! argh!! it's ok .. y'all going to throw a huge party for me rite??? rite?? with big presents!? hahah..

i'm delusional!!!

min lin is a sweet gal!! my fav. junior by far! thanks girl!

i realised that all it needed was a new skin.. and everything is ok! so i'm happy now. the new skin is rather nice. i think. i hope. it's four days of freedom left. i'll be leaving for greener pastures (in this case just a huge jungle over the straits). i dunno what will happen there. how i am to react in facing up to the challenges that are set to meet me as i set foot on the island. my feet, my body, my physical being may be over and away but my heart lies where my home is.

i realised that friendship is like a very fragile vase. you see, a broken vase no matter how well you glue the fragmented pieces together, the cracks will still be there. the pain, will etch itself deep in your soul. and the scar.. never removed.

it's misunderstanding. miscommunication. a few unwise choice of words. phones slammed. and all of a sudden. the vase broke. fell to the floor. no one bothered to even save it. everyone just turn around. turn the other cheek. look away. allowing the vase to just slip off and plummet to the ground. selfish attitudes. ignorance. self-righteous. go-to-hell.