i've realised, well actually my friends realised, that sadly my entries are getting boring. and not to mention extremely sporadic! as dong tagged on the right hand side of the screen.."
i'm decaying!" what with the never ending band practices and all, i just jot down stuff here and dash making for very
mundane reading material about my life. i mean honestly, do you really want to hear me list out all I do in my life? what happened when I bitched and ranted on my blog like a
Jerry Springer guest on crack? the quality's gone down man. i dunno.. perhaps it's the heat.
i didn't go for percussion ensemble today. was just too tired and was waiting for my new and improved aircon to come. these few days i've been living in a hell hole. seriously, the chicken is better off in the oven than in my room. it's stuffy, freaking hot and just i dunno.. bleah! gosh, i better get down to serious business. concert's in 2 weeks. but that's the least of my problems.. they told me to compere the effing show and at the same time play! oh and get a compere partner too.. where am i going to find one? i'll ask amanda tomorrow. sigh..
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hahaha.. what nonsense.. in any case, it's still effing hot now. i'm in a 'pissy' mood today and i dunno what else can go wrong! i've got tonnes of work to hand in tomorrow. which i was suppose to do in the comfort of my new air con.. but now it's not happening!!! argh! and the weather's going to stay like this for at least the next month.. how is it that anyone can live under such extreme humid conditions? i dun mind hot.. but when it's humid and stuffy... u get very iffy and sticky and u just feel lousy the whole day! doesn't help that the uniform is effing thick! and the school. gosh it's like a round-a-bout in hell!
i figured i'm changing nowadays. i dunno.. i guess i'm going crazy. i can accept anything, from people who believe they were princesses in their past life to people who think they are witches.but when it comes to people who are close to me I can be surprisingly narrow-minded. I want my way pretty much most of the time and I need constant reassurement that I'm needed(??) be it in words or actions. And when I don't get what I want,I go off and get all moody. Geez. Someone slap me pleeeeeeeeaaaseeeee! i was
never like this back in SJI. i dunno, i've grown to be rather clingy wussy-assed male and i dun like it one bit! i feel that i'm being too nice to people.i used to stand up for myself god-damnit! now.. "waiter, one order of backbone please!". i need to stand up on my own and do things that i want to do. for myself. not for anyone else. i'm nice to people.generally. if they can't see it. then it's their loss.. dumbasses! so that's my resolution.
ok ok..enough self-realisation and exploration, Oprah Winfry and Dr Phill will have to get a new guest! i sick and tired. dunno what made me rant this much.. maybe it's the heat! i blame it on the weatherman! am listening to
lenny krevitz - if i could fall in love and i must say, it's rather good! a bit techno-ed tho' but it's nice nonetheless.
i'll just end my crappy rantings now..
