just stepped into the house about half an hour ago. was in school practicing for the coming concert this sat. gosh, i reallie dunno what to do. i'm so so so so tired nowadays. i dun have time for anything, let alone my self. way behind on my tutorials and everything just starting to appear blurry. i dun want to be having coffee with the principal. yet i can't bring myself to study. after the concert, i really got to sit down with myself and mug the hell out of me!

is it ever possible to walk around half-asleep with your eyes wide open? is it possible that you walk around aimlessly, not knowing what you're doing, but only knnow that you need to get out of the constraint of the four walls. things are jjust getting very stressful nowadays. i try to take it as it comes but they just keep on piling. there are times when i feel so sick of everything, i just want to push everything off the table and start anew. can i? can i go back to the start? sitting here reminiscing, i can't remeber my childhood very well. did i not have a childhood, or is there something in my past that i want to block out. my gut is leaning towards the latter.