so it took a complete stranger.. ok maybe not a complete stranger. but an aquaintance to make me really happy!! i'm going for mamma mia on the 20th!!! i'm on top of the world!


in other news, thanks to everybody that got frantic when i showed signs of being suicidal and depressed and low.. which runs ironically with my name ro-high! haha. ok lame (and i know you guys didn't go frantic la.. but let me have the hollywood drama/adoring fans treatment can? haha) really appreciate the concern.. love you all.

to all the well wishers for friday night... you know who you are. thanks!! i didn't get it la.. but i had alot of fun!


"it's as close to you as life. but you can never wholly undestand it" - or something like that la. it's by rabindranath tagore. and taken from the movie "sepet", which.. EVERYONE, and i mean EVERYONE should go watch. it's worth thw money.

it seems disappointment likes to crawl in beside me and keep me company these past few days. i dunno. maybe i have a sign saying across my forehead that reads.. "hey! i'm happy.. come disappoint me!! i need disappointments! especially from people i love"..

anybody else wanna take a jab at my already broken heart? there it is.. my heart.. bleeding before you. and me down on my knees.. well, here i am.. for all of you to bleed.. go ahead. take your best jab.. it's good that you don't kill me straightaway. cos then, with each jab, you can see me wince, writhe in pain. suffer a little longer.



i wanna disappear!

on hindsight.. the previous entry made me sound very suicidal. hmmm, maybe i am. nah. it's too small an issue to be suicidal over.

i'm really into "breakaway" by kelly clarkson these few days... i dunno why. but i'm at a juncture of my life where blogging seems to be quite redundant. i can't seem to find the right words to express how i really feel. how is it that you have so much in your head, so much to talk about but when you actually try to pen your thoughts down, you can't seem to get it right. you dunno wot to write. the words just refuse to flow. every feeling or emotion came out in a very syncopated manner. it's very frustrating. but then, you come across a song. a piece of music that just transcends everything. music is often the undiscovered language. the unfathomable phenomenon, able to speak volumes to us. able to comprehend how we actually feel at that moment. when our own words fail us, songs come in to fill the void.


"trying not to reach out, but when i'd try to speak out,
felt like no one could hear me.
wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here,
and so i pray, i just breakaway"

- Kelly Clarkson, "Breakaway"

i guess, i expected too much.. maybe i assumed too much. either way. you seemed to be making light of the issue. i'm disappointed. but it's my fault i didn't give you a confirmation.

i'm moving on. i have too.