At times i wonder... why is it that things dun turn out the way you want it to be... is it just me? when two things look good together..shudn't they be together? or is that a misconception for a utopian world? i dunno... it's very frustrating... you try and try but it just doesn't work out... you know there would never be anything goin' on.. but you still try coz' inside you just have this feeling that'll it survive... it's days like these that keeps u tied up in emotional war.. you dunno whether to lash out and shout or just to keep quiet... All i know is that.. i wann be left alone... go into my own little corner... hide under the covers until i know the world is safe enuff for me to emerge and continue on with my daily rituals.. go away.. pretend you are not there... there's nothing you can do or say that could make it any better... i just need to sort this out...
Weird huh? but that's how it goes...


"...try to see it my way..only time will tell if i am right or wrong.
while you see it your way.. there's a chance that we might fall apart
before too long..
we can work it out, we can work it out..."
~ The Beatles

hello again... ok i took my econs test just now.. all three of them.. horrendous! hahaha... i may pass... wait who am i kidding!?! i'll fail. definately! but then again, hopefully i fail with dignity! hahaha.. Had History S Paper today.. they were all so smart... the question was on "Good Fences Make Good Neighbours" .. what kind of question is that? you might ask.. it's quite an easy one.. but i was not prepared AT ALL for the tutorial.. so basically i just crapped my way thru the discussion.. hahaha... didn't really give out an insightful point!

You knoe, sometimes i wonder why people are very superficial.. at times it just irks me that people behave differently in front of certain people... put up like all sorts of fronts in front of somebody and bitch all they want behind! it's so... rude? i dunno what's the word i should write.. and what's with people and judgement? Seriously.. at time we're like judging people without even getting to knoe them first... I got that a couple of time from this CJ guy... it's so irritating to get such remarks.. i mean, he doesn't even knoe me for starters.. so why the hell is he trippin' ! it's just not right... i mean i can think of a thousand and one points that is bad about him... but i'm not gonna say it.. cos i dunno him well enuff and maybe i'm wrong... so wat's the dealio wit that bastard?? just hope he'd get he's just desserts some day.. or as i've heard from around... he's already got tonnes of desserts in his belly! hahaha.. i feel so mean...just hope he doesn't read this... ok.. i'm guilty.. sorry! i forgive him tho..hhahah

Tomorrow... i'm going to malay class for the first time ever! hahahaha... the malay tutor actually went to ask my civics tutor on my whereabouts! nonsense or wat? sigh.. i guess speakinh malay for a while more would make my father happy! and it won't kill me!!!! hahaha...

ok ok.. i gotta go now... talk to ya laterz

"Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much"
Oscar Wilde

Hahaha... i told ya it's going to be sporadic! so anyway, back again. Last nite i went out to Ziqin's birthday dinner... the food was ambrosial... extremely fragrant, tastes amazing! hahah! i'd kill to eat there again.. but i guess i'll have to wait for special days huh?
Anyway, was suppose to go Centro, but after i put on all my clubbing clothes (which seriously, guys clothes are suitable for anything!) i decided not to! i have no idea why, just felt like i didn't want to go.. Rose and Rozzie didn't go either... so i didn't really know anyone! It would be kinda boring coz' like you're not surrounded by people u are familiar with.. i mean yeah there's Lily, Fadil, Ziqin and a couple of other SJI guys.. but ultimately.... i'd have no one that i'm close with..i mean i dun hang out with them nd all... so i dun really feel v. comfy... So we went to Rozzie's house... played Cluedowhich i find is interesting.. that's the first time i ever played that! hahaha.. ok ok.. deprived childhood! but it's not as if i played every board game in town!
Sunday and i'm still writing on my blog! i'm like sleepy and half asleep!! tomorrow, i've got like an econs test and i have not even start on anything! i'm seriously dead!! 'm trying my hardest to get it later... please god... help me tomorrow!

shucks.. i guess i'll just stop here ya... maybe i shud just do my econs now!! hahaha.... pray for me!



"If you're not for me, then
why do i dream of you
as my wife?"
~ Daniel Beddingfield